Reflections

Though my eyes may fail me
I will follow after You
Though You promise seems forsaken
Ill remember the worlds in Your hands
Youll find me singing


You are unfailing God
Your loves unending
And Your word is eternal
Firm in the heavens its stands

Though sorrows my condition
And pain holds back no blow
Though this be my darkest hour
Your lamp is leading me home
Youll find me singing

You are unfailing God

Your loves unending
And Your word is eternal
Firm in the heavens its stands


Eyes cant see but I feel You near
I know Youre working through my tears
I trust You Lord I trust You for You never walk away

You are unfailing God

Your loves unending
And Your word is eternal
Firm in the heavens its stands

Unfailing God
Unfailing God
Your Love is unending

You are unfailing God
Your love's unending
And Your word is eternal
Firm in the heavens it stands


It's the end of the school holidays, and come to think of it, I haven't really been a very good time manager. The breakthrough that I have been hoping for ever since 2 posts ago never came. I also haven't been doing a lot of QT these days, and after doing it this morning I felt super refreshed. It is a great feeling to know that the new term's going to start on a high for me.

However this holiays were not as smoothful as you may think. Imagine a warehouse, where all the things are kept. That warehouse represents my life at that time. Now this warehouse is not an ordinary warehouse, the goods on all the shelves are placed in the wrong sections. For example a box coded Z is put under A and not Z. In other words my life was pretty messed up, with all the things going in the wrong places. I was really upset and angry with God and I lost it. I lost the faith. I lost the hunger for more. But soon after that some things cleared up, and things became a little better. It was not until yesterday's service that God touched me the most, with this song. God is unfailing, His love is unending and it is firm. It cannot be changed by anyone or anything. If you were to watch the video on the right it tells a really touching history of the song 'Overcome' by New Life Church. It complements the fact that God is really unfailing, and His Love is eternal.

Reflecting on this June Holidays it has been a good break from school and the Bali trip was really one of the most awesome ever. Something I would like to mention is Mariokart, the most (K)ompetitive game ever, with 7 to 8 [human] players (Really, everyone got hit by the same blue shell). Yea, there are cases that people get fed up with their performance and DC (disconnect). I will emphasize on two points here. Firstly, winning isn't everything. Yea, you may think it is easy for me to say that since I usually perform well. But remember, like everyone else, no one is perfect. I also have my bad performances too. If you're from 2A and went to Bali and was among the people playing Mariokart you would remember on the fourth day before lunch we played Rainbow Road. That was my extremely poor performance. I blew my engine at the start and fell off the track (at least) 3 times. Even if I came in one of the last it was still enjoyable. I could never forget the experience. But as I say winning isn't everything. Like some people's philosophy is that you compete to win (No mentioning names). I tell you that this is not the case. Why did people invent games in the first place? To win? Obvoiusly not! In a similiar situation, what makes you feel happier, having good grades but you know you cheated during that exam, or getting not-so-good grades and reside in the fact that your integrity is intact and that you have tried your best? Unless you don't have a conscience I hope the answer is the latter. Similiarly it's not always about winning.

Even as I am saying this now there is something heavy that I have to say. Many times I can also fall victim to this 'winning-is-everything' philosophy and sometimes play ugly to get the top few (like 'bonk'ing people off the track). I know bonk-ing is not really illegal or anything, but when I came back home and reflected on what I did on many occasions, believe it or not that was under my classification of "playing ugly". I apologize for that. Sometimes I really get fed up with the must-win attitude people, which is different from people that are hungry to win. In other words the hungry-to-win people are not actually hungry to win, they use winning as a form of motivation to spur them to play well. There is a difference. Sometimes the must-win people can also turn out to be me, unknowingly. Playing ugly is a symptom. I feel that unless I correct myself of this mistake, I am in no position to stand here and fulfill God's calling for me to be a leader.

I would also want to make a public statement of my faith. Yes, that means I'm getitng baptized. This is a public invitation to all of my friends to come and be a witness to my proclamaiton. The service will be on 11 July, 2.30pm at Riverlife Church, 6 Loyang Besar Close. It is a Sunday. I reallt hope that you are able to come and that I can share this joyous occasion with you.

God bless.